So I'm scared. When I was young it was of tornadoes and scary men climbing through my window. Now it's of Global Warming, George W. Bush, never having the body I want...or a guy who wants me.I'm scared that people are going to look at me and see someone completely different than who I am...I'm afraid they already do.
I've never known the feeling of being fearless. I feel like it would be a good one but I've never lived in a world that allowed me to be unafraid. Sometimes I wish I could just do everything I was scared to do or forget about everything I'm scared of. But that's easier said than done, right? And maybe if I did I'd never change. I've lost 145lbs and counting because I was afraid of obesity cutting my life short. I'm in college and working hard to get a good education because I'm afraid of what would happen if I don't...I've seen what will happen.
So maybe this thing called fear is not so undesirable as we make it out to be. Perhaps, like pain it serves a protective function. People who don't feel pain often end up dead at a dreadfully young age. And people who don't have fear don't grow. And if you buy into the fact that one person can change the world than you need courage. And courage to me is about being afraid of life and its hardships but living anyway.
